Thursday, April 16, 2009

confessions of a mad woman

It's hard not to make assumptions in the world we live in. It's hard not knowing what feeling to feel. It's hard going through a cycle and not being able to prevent it from happening. Maybe I look at life in a broader spectrum, a means to get by and learn from things. After all that's what we're doing half of the time....learning.

What hurts can only make you stronger
is what they tell you when you're upset, sad, depressed, mad, and all of the negative adjectives you can think of. In some cases it does make you stronger, but what if you can't break the cycle? The hurt someone feels escalates, people assure you that that powerful quote is true and someday it will happen, only to find out it's just a way to prolong the person's demise.

Expect the unexpected.
Life is always full of surprises, good or bad. But to know that the "unexpected" has happened a million times before, and yet time and time again people allow themselves to be vulnerable to the consequences...crushes the value of this quote. (And it happens, trust me!) When they hold back from it all, others taunt and call it, "fear." It is not fear when a person knows their fateful outcome and does not want to take the chances. Yet others push and they shove, and they assure that everything is alright and when that fateful day appears, all they can say is...expect the unexpected.

Everything happens for a reason is a fake testimony to people's action. People make excuses, excuses, lies, excuses, false actions, excuses...and replace those judgments with the word "reason." It's like testing morality; what we should or should not do. I'm not saying mistakes can't be made, for often times, they do. I'm talking about the repetitive mistakes I'VE made...but I refuse to listen and excuses turn into lies, and lies turn into reasons...reasons of false hope.

To assume makes an ass out of u and me is an OVERstatement, that's right, an OVERstatement. When a person assumes, others over use this quote in order to override the situation this person is in. Others are so busy trying to make a person realize assumptions are wrong, and neglect the person's past history of events that they've been in...similar events. It is not because they want to assume, it is not because they are derived from negative thinking, it is not because of you or them or others or anything else. It is the image of what they see, think, feel and each time another person chooses to ignore that, it breaks what that person sees, thinks, feels into little pieces...leading them into even more isolation.....because of this assumption they fail to recognize a person's emotions, and focus on more of the terminology of the word.

Hopefully I'll realize, and other people will realize that there are more than these common quotes to live by. Hidden in a more deeper layer of a person's life, lies the truth to their actions, reasons, and thoughts.

P.S. - Oh God Beeej I miss you sooooooooooo much! :(

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